sometimes

its not an easy thing for someone to forget something that hurt too much,

sometimes

its not an easy thing like tell u to forget,then u will be able to forget

sometimes

its not an easy thing that like u said"don't cry,it will be ok"then it will be ok

sometimes

its not an easy thing that like u said time will cure everything,then the blood will stop bleeding

i

already told myself to forget,

i

already do a lot to keep living

my blood already finish bleeding

but the scar still there

my heart already stop function

but it still pain

my brain already full with working thing

but when i m alone,my brain still full with him

my tear already dry,

but everytime i saw the necklace,i still will cried like a kid

i throw away the necklace,

u r still in my mind

i throw away the thing that u give me

u still in my heart

i already promise myself,

won't cry anymore

but when u appear in my mind,

i will break my promise

i hope i could stop,

but i can't

i hope i didn't meet u before

but u did appear in my life

dear,

its enough........

its really enough.....

i can't take it anymore......

i need to be alone recently,

i told my friend,

leave alone for a while ,ok?

i will let u know when i m ok

she said ok

she seem so lonely

i know sometimes

when u need me,

i m not around

but u are my best friend

when anything happen to u

i will support u

no matter what,

becoz u r my lao po(i got 3 lao po),

i m your lao gong,

haha.....

when ur BF bully u,

your lao gong will punch him for u

nobody can bully u,

when he dont care u,

i will listen to u,

let's become friend until we become lao popo

ok?

yesterday........

......

.......

........

go to E's blog,

seriously,

i m very very shock,

i don't wanna hurt anyone,

it just not a good timing,

i know i still need a lot of time to recover,

i already told myself after break with that SG guy,

i will not accept anyone if he is still in my mind,

i feel really bad,

when that SG guy holding my hand,

it remind me the time when he is holding my hand,

from that time,

i know,

nobody could replace him,

i really don't mean to hurt anyone,

and i don't wanna hurt anyone anymore.

give me some time,

maybe 10 years,20 years...........

when i m ready,

i know,

i will get a better life,

for now,

i wanna keep my mind in my dream.

:)

昨天，雪萤的妈把她带回来我家，

回到的时候，她头上有伤口，

而且还哭得很严重。

她妈说被狗咬到，我妈立刻开口骂，

"以为自己生了第二个小孩，就不用带这个女儿了吗？"

不用理她了吗?只因为这个女儿不是老公的小孩就不爱了吗？

怀胎十月，没有感情的吗?

她在怀孕的时候曾经问过我妈，

如果她生了儿子，雪萤要给我们，

我妈就问她

你有没有搞错啊！！！

还好上天保佑他，

生了女儿，:)

当时我看着雪萤，我想她以后的路，

会很难走。

若是她妈生的是儿子的话，

更难走。

我妈说

雪萤的妈是成功之母

哈哈，认同！！

好希望雪萤能在我们家平安长大，

少受点苦。

原神保佑他。

无止尽的思念，

要到什么时候才能中止呢？

爱，

要到什么时候才能忘呢？

人已不再，

为何爱与思念还残忍的缠着我，

不容我解脱呢？

到底要怎样，我才能忘了你呢？

到底要如何才能，

摆脱这漩涡呢？

七个对不起

男孩和女孩从小就认识，男孩经常约女孩一起去村外的池塘边捉小虾，

每次男孩总是满载而归，女孩却是两手空空，

女孩总是失落的含着眼泪，独自一个人回到家，

然后闷闷不乐。晚饭前，男孩敲响女孩家的门，

女孩一见是男孩，扭头就走

，男孩追上前，对女孩说：

“对不起，我把你的虾都捉走了，给，我把它们养在小鱼缸里，送给你。”

女孩眉头一放，慧心的笑了，就这样反复着他们纯纯的童年，

转眼，他们各自成长着。

——纯纯的“对不起”。

男孩总是喜欢戏弄女孩，经常会把女孩逗到哭，

然后又去哄女孩到她笑为止，

直到长大后，也是如此。

男孩经常偷偷的把女孩的自行车轮胎的气放到没有，

然后躲在远处，看女孩着急的走投无路，

等着女孩拨通他的手机，

然后破口大骂他的小贼行为。

可男孩，依旧那么喜欢这样的女孩。

他窃窃的从远处走来

，灰溜溜的为女孩推着那辆没了气的自行车，

任由女孩在一旁发牢骚，男孩却暗自窃喜，

然后委屈的对女孩说：“对不起，我知道错了。”

随即，女孩便会柔弱下来，

告诉男孩下次不允许那样，男孩点头，

于是，那时的他们每天都充满着笑容。

——“对不起”的快乐。

大学毕业后，男孩和女孩各自有了工作，

男孩的工作总是很忙，有时一个月都休息不到一次，

而女孩总是抱怨男孩冷落了她，

终于，他们有了第一次的吵架。

女孩委屈的哭起来，可男孩却很理直气壮的告诉女孩：

“这是为了我的工作。”

这场冷战持续了很久。

终于，女孩还是忍不住，主动和男孩和好了。

后来很多次男孩和女孩都因为这样的小事而吵得不可开交，

可每次，都是女孩先妥协。

那年，女孩生日，男孩答应女孩要给他过一个浪漫的生日，

女孩欣喜不已，她在家精心打扮，

等着男孩回来陪她渡过这个美妙的生日，

这一等就是凌晨，女孩在睡梦中醒来，

脸上挂着泪痕，男孩见到女孩，

心疼的为女孩擦去脸庞的泪痕：

“对不起，嫁给我好吗？”

于是男孩拿出一枚戒指。

——“对不起”也是一种承诺。

婚后，男孩的事业大有成就，经常有许多应酬，

而女孩已经成为一个专职太太了，

每天在家为男孩准备热菜热饭，

把家里收拾的干干净净，

她经常会去菜场买回一些小河虾放在鱼缸里养着，

男孩总问他为什么，

女孩却总是慧心的一笑。

慢慢的，男孩每次回家，

身上总是充满了不同的香水味道，

而每次没等女孩问，

男孩总是忙着解释说应酬太多。

女孩黯然，那时起，女孩不太爱说话了，

也不像以前那么开朗了，

她总是喜欢成天的呆在家里，

抱着枕头看韩剧，然后随着剧情哭泣，

夜深时，就会疯狂的大哭。

以后的日子里，男孩回来时，

身上的香水味只有一种味道了，

女孩从来不问，可是男孩依旧说

：“对不起，今天又去应酬了。”

——“对不起”，谎言的开始。

渐渐的，男孩开始不回家，或总是在外出差，

男孩的事业越来越好，身边都是奉承的人，

他每天都在别人的恭维下自豪的笑着，

而女孩，几乎不出门了，

她总会去超市买上很多方便面，和一些必要的日用品

，然后把自己关在家里，这一呆就是很久。

从前，女孩会经常和男孩一起聊聊天，

而现在，她孤身一人，身边没有一个可以说话的人，

每次打电话问男孩什么时候回家，

男孩总是仓促的回答到：

“对不起，我太忙了。”

女孩，失落的扣上电话，

那以后她再也没有问男孩什么时候会回家。

——“对不起”，只是个敷衍的方式。

女孩学着电视上的样子，开始打扮自己，

她觉得男孩不回家，也许是看腻了她

，她决定不再颓废，自己的幸福应该靠自己争取，

而不是无谓的后退。

那天，女孩心血来潮

，按照地址去了男孩工作的地方，

那是女孩第一次去，也是唯一的一次。

女孩涩涩的按下电梯，

来到这个男孩经常说忙的地方，

她细细的观察这个公司的每个角落，

这里的一切，她都觉得很好看。

终于，绕过长长的办公走廊，

她来到男孩的办公室，轻轻的推开门……

女孩愣住了，眼前看到的不是自己的丈夫，

也不是那个经常弄坏她自行车的那个贼小子，

更不是那个把虾放在小鱼缸里的男孩，

而是一个正在和别的女人做爱的男人。

那个女人坐在桌子上，

******的发出微弱的呻吟声，

那个男人，仿佛山林里饿极了的野兽……

许久，男孩才发现了女孩，男孩惊慌失措，

忙把衣裤捡起来穿好。可女孩，转身离开了。

男孩飞奔出去，追着女孩，

那晚，大雨袭击了整个城市。女孩不顾男孩的叫喊

，径直往前跑，往回家的方向跑，男孩在女孩后面大喊：

“对不起，我还是爱你的，对不起，我真的只爱你。”

可女孩，始终没有听见。

——这样的“对不起”太伤人。

男孩一直都没有找到女孩，女孩失踪很久了。

男孩的世界已经一片黑暗，无心工作，

无心花天酒地，他想不到女孩可以去哪里，

因为女孩没有朋友，她唯一的朋友就是男孩，

男孩终日守着电话机，手机24小时不关机

，怕错过了女孩的电话。这一等就是半年多。

快递为男孩送来一个盒子。

男孩打开一看，里面是许多河虾的标本，有的在树叶边休息，

有的在水草里躲着，各式各样的河虾标本，旁边放着一封信。

“ 我始终没有勇气再见到你，可能是我太懦弱，也或许是我根本不想见到你，我想这些日子应该过的没什么两样吧，

我很好，我学会了离开你怎么让自己存活，

我懂得了怎样赚钱养活自己，而不用每天等着你回家，

为你烧一桌热腾腾的饭菜，直到凉了也不见你的人，

我的手机已经不用了，因为我已经不会再为你24小时的不关机，

让自己饱受辐射的折磨。我懂得怎样去爱惜自己，

珍惜自己的本来应该美好的生活。

我想，我是可以忘记怎么去爱你的，

因为你把我的爱弄得遍地麟伤。

离婚协议书，就压在鱼缸的底下，

你签完字，按照地址给我寄过来就行了。

对不起，我想我是真的累了。”

男孩按照地址找去，他满心希望能够见到女孩，

然后让女孩原谅，并且告诉女孩自己不能没有她，

可是打开门的却是女孩的父亲，

而女孩就站在她父亲的身后——是女孩的遗像。

女孩的父亲告诉男孩，女孩在写完这封信后，

跳楼自杀了，血肉一片模糊。

——原来“对不起”也可以是种结束。

那一年，男孩疯了。

Why Girl must have P but guys no need???

>:(

T.T

feel not well

dizzy,

stomach pain like something spinning inside of it

Damn it!!!!!!!!!!

最近很emo，

不知道自己在做什么，

好想躲起来，

避开世人的眼光

逃离这令人厌烦的世界，

良心灭绝的世界。

若有神的话，

到底什么时候，

他会看不过眼，

忍不住，

把地球毁灭呢？

或者一开始，

撒坦就是人类呢？

而我们所看见的神不过是大恶魔而已呢？

有人能回答我吗？

i m bored to blog,

bored to surf net,

bored to play game

don't looking for me,

i wanna hide in internet

i will show up

when i feel its enuf

don't ask me why

i just wanna be alone for now

no reason

no asking

no question

leave me alone!!!!

Starbucks in Bekenu Miri,Sarawak

V

i got it from my coliege,damn funny XD

Dun test my ingerish

Ah Lek was asked to make a sentence using 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9,10.

Not only did he do it 1 to 10, he did it again from 10 back to 1.

This is what he came up with.....

1 day I go 2 climb a 3 outside a house to peep. But the couple saw me, so I panic and 4 down. The man rushed out and wanted to 5 with me. I ran until I fell 6 and threw up. So I go into 7-eleven and grabbed some 8 to throw at him. Then I took a 9 and try to stab at him. 10 God he run away.

10 I put the 9 back and pay for the 8 and left 7-eleven. Next day I called my boss and told him I was 6. He said 5 , tomorrow also no need to come back 4 work. He also asked me to go climb a 3 and jump down! I don't understand. I am so nice 2 him but I don't know what he 1.

p/s:this ah lek is so geng!!!

LOL

a letter from heaven
Dear Mommy,

I am in Heaven now, sitting on Jesus' lap.

He loves me and cries with me; for my heart has been broken.

I so wanted to be your little girl.

I don't quite understand what has happened.

I was so excited when I began realizing my existence.

I was in a dark, yet comfortable place. I saw I had fingers and toes.

I was pretty far along in my developing, yet not near ready to leave my surroundings.

I spent most of my time thinking or sleeping.

Even from my earliest days, I felt a special bonding between you and me.

Sometimes I heard you crying and I cried with you.

Sometimes you would yell or scream, then cry.

I heard Daddy yelling back. I was sad, and hoped you would be better soon.

I wondered why you cried so much.

One day you cried almost all of the day.

I hurt for you. I couldn't imagine why you were so unhappy.

That same day, the most horrible thing happened.

A very mean monster came into that warm, comfortable place I was in.

I was so scared, I began screaming, but you never once tried to help me.

Maybe you never heard me.

The monster got closer and closer as I was screaming and screaming,

"Mommy, Mommy, help me please; Mommy, help me."

Complete terror is all I felt. I screamed and screamed until I thought I couldn't anymore.

Then the monster started ripping my arms off.

It hurt so bad; the pain I can never explain.

It didn't stop. Oh, how I begged it to stop.

I screamed in horror as it ripped my leg off.

Though I was in such complete pain, I was dying.

I knew I would never see your face or hear you say how much you love me.

I wanted to make all your tears go away. I had so many plans to make you happy.

Now I couldn't; all my dreams were shattered.

Though I was in utter pain and horror, I felt the pain of my heart breaking, above all.

I wanted more than anything to be your daughter.

No use now, for I was dying a painful death.

I could only imagine the terrible things that they had done to you.

I wanted to tell you that I love you before I was gone,

but I didn't know the words you could understand.

And soon, I no longer had the breath to say them; I was dead.

I felt myself rising.

I was being carried by a huge angel into a big beautiful place.

I was still crying, but the physical pain was gone.

The angel took me to Jesus and set me on His lap.

He said He loved me, and He was my Father.

Then I was happy. I asked Him what the thing was that killed me.

He answered, "Abortion. I am sorry, my child; for I know how it feels."

I don't know what abortion is;

I guess that's the name of the monster.

I'm writing to say that I love you and to tell you how much I wanted to be your little girl.

I tried very hard to live. I wanted to live.

I had the will, but I couldn't; the monster was too powerful.

It sucked my arms and legs off and finally got all of me.

It was impossible to live. I just wanted you to know I tried to stay with you.

I didn't want to die.

Also, Mommy, please watch out for that abortion monster.

Mommy, I love you and I would hate for you to go through the kind of pain I did.

Please be careful.

Love, Your Baby Girl

PRO CHOICE??? DO YOU THINK THESE BABIES CHOSE TO DIE???

This Is Dedicated To The Memory Of All The Aborted Babies Throughout The World. JESUS He keeps watch over everyone. Please pass this on to as many people as u can.......if u have a heart u will..........i sent it to u cuz i know u have a heart n will send it to others, so that they will know what happens to their child and all the pain the baby goes through when they abort their baby.

this email is from my coliege,just to share,it attach with few baby's photo

all the baby die of abortion,if u wanna see the photo,

please leave me a comment & i will send it to u.

my brother come back 3days

the three days,

u know what he do?

he eating & sleeping only

what he eat?

pork

my mom ask him

what u wanna eat for breakfast tomorrow?

he said anything with pork

then i said

then we go & eat roti canai balut fresh pork meat,ok?

XD

saturday morning we go to tesco after breakfast

my brother get pork noodle as his breakfast

we spend RM150+ for the snack only

he wanna bring it all to the camp

eat eat eat only,hahaz

my mom said

he become botak liao,look like a nerd if he don't talk

XD

sunday morning,he skip the youth group

he said wanna sleep

then i go alone,

but KL ask

where is YJ?

then i tell him

he curi tulang,sleeping in house,he will come afterward

XP

we send him back to camp after worship

my mom look so lonely

2 more month to go

Cape no 7=海角七号

昨晚，看完了海角七号，果然有感动到，是一部很成功的片子

片中表达了人最真诚的思念。

也是我看过最美的思念。

片中的男主角，阿嘉（范逸臣）完全做到了片中的感觉，

他不要如信中的男人一样，

到老了

才能把思念传达给爱的人知道

把握爱，

在还有机会的时候，

记得向你所爱的人传达你的爱。

http://cape7.pixnet.net/blog/2

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剧情大纲

1945年二次世界大战结束，台湾日治时期也随之终结。12月，一位日本籍教师在遣返船高砂丸上，一字一句写下给他台湾籍女学生兼爱人小岛友子的七封情书。信封上简单写着“台湾恒春郡海角七番地”、“小島友子様”但随着两人分离两地另组家庭，成了寄不出去的七封情书。
六十馀年后的现代，原于台北任乐团主唱的阿嘉，打滚十馀年仍一事无成，一日早晨在怒砸电吉他后，失意地骑着他冒着大量黑烟的老旧机车，一路由台北骑回故乡－台湾最南端的恒春镇，并在镇民代表会主席（阿嘉的继父）的关说与安排下暂时接替因为车祸而无法工作的老邮差茂伯之工作。但阿嘉忿忿不平，看不起身边的一切，完全没有尽责地送信，几乎把信件都带回家搁置。其中有一件来自日本、要寄到“海角七号”的邮包，阿嘉好奇打开之后看见了七封日文信，看不懂内容的他将其丢在房间一角。
另一方面，当地的饭店找了日本歌手中孝介来表演，却因没有用当地人的乐团，遭代表会主席封杀，最后逼不得已只好请恒春当地的乐团暖场，负责演奏两首暖场曲，但在当地根本没有乐团，只好由一群杂牌军凑出一个暖场用摇滚乐团：痛骂台北的失意乐团主唱阿嘉、离异的原住民警察吉他手劳马、早熟古怪却才能无处发挥的小六教堂键盘手大大、喜欢人妻的机车行学徒鼓手水蛙，贝斯手甚至换了三任：劳马那其实不会弹贝斯的口琴吉他老爹、号称月琴“国宝”却只能自娱的老邮差茂伯、直到最后换成勤劳的小米酒客家推销员马拉桑。
在练习过程中，整个团队因为各种因素而时有冲突，且看来毫无希望：觉得大材小用，所以不关心也不负责的乐团主唱、想唱自己歌的吉他手、太过自我的键盘手、根本不会弹贝斯的贝斯手们…以及无能为力的日本女公关等。团队开始练习阿嘉几年前写的第一首歌，在过程中慢慢互相了解、和解并培养默契，但尽管如此，演唱会日子即将到来，第二首歌毫无影踪，阿嘉仍然萎靡不振；友子愤怒辞职，却被茂伯送来的婚宴邀请函给留住。在疯狂的路边办桌喜宴后，本来想放弃的友子与阿嘉在酒后互吐真言后发生了突如其来的一夜情。在阿嘉的房间里，友子读了被阿嘉抛在角落的七封信。原来写那些信的日籍教师已过世，他的女儿发现了，并且将信寄来台湾。读到了信中浓烈的思念的友子敦促阿嘉一定要把信送到。
一夜情虽然造成了尴尬，但阿嘉却也借由友子的鼓励，振作起来用心去创作第二首歌曲。同时，友子向大大被日本男人抛弃的母亲吐露爱上了阿嘉的心事，并在讨论台日恋情一事时提到了她所见的那七封未寄出的信。原来被抛弃的小岛友子是大大母亲的祖母。在大大母亲的提示下，阿嘉最后终于将那七封信在六十年后送给了收信人，并在演唱会即将开始前及时赶回。
在演唱会开始前，阿嘉终于向友子真情表白。暖场团队达成任务，表演大受欢迎。友子在所有观众面前戴上了代表爱情的原住民珠链，接受了阿嘉的爱。在中孝介以及阿嘉合唱的安可曲《野玫瑰》这首歌曲当中，表演完美收场。在此同时，小岛友子老祖母抚著七封信，在野玫瑰的末段歌词声中，回想起六十年前与日本教师分别的场景。