i dont like to think to much

but recently

i think a lot

bout him

bout me

bout my work

bout my future

bout my religion

bing wu teach me a lot

but i still cant accept it

i m a dirty ppl

if i m standing infront of god

but which one is the real god?

will he accept me?

even i cant accept myself

i told ethel that before

she said

god will forgive all u have done

i cant forgive myself

he can?

sometimes

i really hope i can be like them

all the youth

easy

happy

enjoy

i lost all of it

my heart no longer easy

my heart no longer happy

chin2 said i look always happy

really?

the happiness is just a mask

behind the mask just lonely & sadness